The promise ring my baby got me.<3

like such a part of the family. Jeanne’s parents had the grandkids over for about 3 days. They don’t know that Jeanne is gay but they all really liked me. I got to take pictures with them and read them a bedtime story. And my mom and dad gave me about seven hundred bucks all together for christmas so I gave one hundred of it to Jeanne’s parents. They really appreciated it. Her dad said thank you about four times. It was cute. And last night her dad gave me a hug. I’m pretty sure her mom saw that I called them “my other family” on facebook. (: It’s amazing to be dating someone that treats me so good and having her family do the same. I can’t wait for her to meet my parents and especially my niece. My niece really really likes Jeanne. I love this new family of mine.<3

I really really hope I never have to go through surgery! When I was little my mom had to go through heart surgery. So, I don’t know it just scares me. Also I hope I never have to go through anything to do with MS. My grandpa died from MS when I was four. I think my biggest fears, in all honesty, are going through surgery and of developing MS. Oh and being in a car accident. 

I’d love to go to school for either Health Administration or Medical Billing/Coding. OR the person that types what is being said during court.

I also want to travel more. And figure out what is wrong with my tummy. 

I really want to get married to Jeanne one day and start a family with her. Get a house and create a family with her. 

These two go together for me. I really don’t know though if I should forgive myself or the other person so that is why they go together for me. When I was eleven a man molested me. I can’t remember who it was or how old he was. Just more than likely he was over eight teen. We were in a van with five other people on our way to Toy Story on Ice. He covered his lap with a sweater and forced me to touch him. I was too scared to say anything but I remember trying to pull away. And I don’t remember the Toy Story on Ice show that we went to. To this day I haaaate those movies. For a long time I didn’t even realize what happened was extremely wrong or that it was called “molestation”. When I was in the eighth grade a friend was molested and then when I had my first kiss I freaked out. Started having flash backs. But thank god my best friend at the time made me tell her the story over and over so that I wasn’t ashamed anymore. I’m nor ashamed or uncomfortable talking about it now. So whom should be forgiven? The one who was forced to touch him but never told anyone till she was fifteen or the one that forced her to touch him in the first place?!

One thing I love about myself is that I only rely on myself and my girlfriend. I mean yes, sometimes I wish I could rely on my family but I have learned not to. The only thing they are there for me for is to give me money. But emotionally I only rely on those two people I mentioned above.

Another thing I love is I do what I want without worrying about others. I am proud to be gay and I am proud to be myself. I don’t need to go to school or dress act like a slut to be known or to be well liked. I am me and fukkk the rest. And I really think that is the way it should be.<3

The only thing I can really say that I don’t like about myself IS that it is hard for me to let people get close to me because as soon as I do I get scared and push them away because of my anxiety. But I always have loved the thought of being in love and getting married and creating a family with someone. 

Buuuut for once I’m not pushing someone away. I’m not getting anxiety. And I can see myself doing all those things with someone. My current girlfriend Jeanne. I really don’t know what I would do without her. And I know all of you I’m sure have seen many many people say those words. But for me it is one hundred percent the truth. She brings out the goofiness in me. And each time I kiss her I feel so much love and passion. And just looking into her eyes I can feel the love and passion come off of her too. Plus we both are bringing down our walls for one another. Which makes our relationship even better.<3